$700+ for gas - seriously already in the hole, and that's if we either find someone to round robin driving so we only stop to let the dogs pee, and not stay in hotels, or sleep in the truck. Not a good idea with a baby.

Lest we forget I'm losing the jeep on Monday, which means I need to get my car running by then. Battery, fuel filter, new gas, and hope to god that does the trick. Which YAY cuts into the moving money even further.

It's the cheapest house I can find, if I didn't have to fork that out right now, I'd be solid. Just get there and figure it out when I'm there. If it's this house great, if not something else. Sadly there's no one to stay with down there, I'm ready to pull my fucking hair out.

If I didn't need a bed when I got there, and Ryder didn't have so much stuff, and I didn't need a place for the dogs, I'd just take the god damn car and take my chances. She loves road trips.

I've moved from New York to Florida, granted we left everything behind and flew with the clothes on our backs, and photo albums. I moved from Florida to Indiana, my dad was there Mr. Money Bags. From Indiana to Wisconsin, we made that trip back and forth every weekend, we moved in the Corsica and just slowly migrated everything in those trips. Then my dad brought everything that was left with him when he moved up here. I moved from Wisconsin to Ohio, on a single paycheck each from my mom and I. Granted we were both making a killing. I moved back on. . . Jason's credit card. All this god damn experience you'd think I could figure this out!!

Everyone keeps telling me wives ask for some kind of settlement in the divorce, maybe I should ask Jason for money. YEAAA right! It's taken almost 2 years to get a divorce when I asked for NOTHING! I can only imagine when I do.

Hey Jas, I need like $1850 so I can put security on a place in Utah, that's my divorce settlement okay? Hey if you wanna be generous make it a cool $5,000 so I don't have to freak out about no one in the house having a job, because as it turns out there are NONE in Cedar!

Fucking hell. I sure know how to screw myself don't I? First payment on the house goes out Friday. On a house I may NOT even be able to occupy.

This was not the plan, not even remotely close.

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