Every fiber of my being
I used to trust you
I wouldn't believe
If you told me the sky was blue

I give up separating my life
Share my friends, my enemies, share it all
I see the way you use me, discard me
Roll me through your fingers like a ball

I'm partly to blame
I let you do this time and again
I let you manipulate me
and pretend

You keep lying to me even now
I'll never speak to her again
I won't meet her
She's just a friend

Why do you have to be so invested in my life?
Especially when you don't want me in yours?
Three times the charm, right?
Christy, Lisa, Katie, any more?

I can't believe you'd do this yet again
Is this what Angie felt like, when I came along?
Slowly weening me out now?
For the next one that you'll do wrong.

I hate you so much
It kills me
I love you much more
So I still torture myself completely.

I always thought I passed up my one
Wasting too much time on Mr. Wrong
I thought all that disappeared
When you came along

Go ahead, flirt
Meet, I don't care anymore
I just want to get there
And start my life once more

Hope to god there's someone better
Than the one I'm leaving behind
Maybe my biggest mistake yet
Here's hoping the thought leaves my mind
-Tonya 10/01/08



There's a corner of your heart for me.
There's a corner of your heart just for me.
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart.
Just to stay in the corner of your heart.

There is room beneath your bed for me.
There is room beneath your bed just for me.
I will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed.
Just to sleep underneath your bed.

There's one minute of your day.
There's one minute of your day.
I will leave this man just to occupy one minute of your day.
Just to occupy one minute of your day.

Just to sleep underneath your bed.

Just to stay in the corner of you heart.

So I guess it was Katie's idea to ask. She said she would only meet him if it was okay with me. I feel like an ass being uncomfortable with it. She's my friend and he's Mr. Big. I am thinking, he and I have been at this game for 10 months, and she was my friend first, I should be meeting them both first. Or at least he and I meet her the same time.

We had a good talk last night and this morning about it though, which makes me feel better. I'm still shocked he even asked no matter whose idea it was.