OoooooOoOoOoOoOoO!!!!!! He AGGRAVATES the ever loving SHIT out of me!! Bad enough he tells me 'I love you and I wish you would have done things my way' on the phone the other night, now THIS?

Him - 10:50 am - Morning
Me - 10:51 am - You haunted my dreams last night. You and Dennis, my old manager from AmEx.
Him - 10:52 am - Was I good?
Me - 10:52 am - Not that kinda dream, but yay for wishful thinking. How are you this morning?
Him - 10:53 am - Damn...I could be better, I have a headache and my stomach is disagreeing with what I ate last night.
Me - 10:55 am - Then done eat it.
Me - 10:55 am - *don't
Him - 10:55 am - I'm not going to again!
Me - 10:56 am - Sucks to be her!
Him - 10:57 am - It wasn't pussy! LOL
Me - 10:59 am - Yea yea
Him - 11:02 am - It wasn't!
Him - 11:11 am - So what was I doing in your dream?
Me - 11:16 am - I dunno really I just remember you and I walking.
Him - 11:20 am - Hmmm...
Me - 11:21 am - Mmhm
Him - 11:28 am - Maybe that is something your heart desires - that we just walk and talk
Me - 11:29 am - Who are you and what have you done with Ron?
Him - 11:30 am - Why do you say that?
Me - 11:35 am - My heart desires? You don't talk like that
Him - 11:36 am - Maybe I should
Me - 11:37 am - Since when have you wanted to be a romantic? Or cared about my hearts desires?
Him - 11:39 am - I can be romantic! Since now I guess.
Me - 11:47 am - I know you can be. I asked since when do you want to be? And do you care now for the sold purpose I'm with someone else or because you're looking for a challenge again like in the beginning or do you legitimately see what I saw before?
Him - 11:51 am - Because I'm looking for what?
Me - 11:52 am - The 2nd message should be coming through
Him - 11:53 am - Both
Me - 11:54 am - There were 3 options...
Him - 12:00 pm - Ok...the latter two
Me - 12:00 pm - I don't want to be another challenge for you.It'll be the same as before you bait and catch and toss back in.
Him - 12:02 pm - Ok then...it's the challenge that you are with someone.
Me - 12:04 pm - And what happens if I do leave Chris? Take him up on his offer to see where things go with you? Fun's over and I'm left alone, dealing with heartbroken kids, and devestating the man I have a chance at a real life with? Would you still be there? I'm not so sure. I think you're bored, and love toying with me, and the satisfaction would be in getting me away from Chris because you could, not because you thought you lost something great. Which by the way you did.
Him - 12:22 pm - Thanks. Aren't I just the asshole! Stay where you are.
Me - 12:22 pm - Well please tell me if I am wrong here?
Him - 12:23 pm - You aren't. Have a great day because you just made mine.
Me - 12:24 pm - You brought it up! Run away as usual Ron. God forbid you actually EVER resolve this!
Him - 12:24 pm - It will never be resolved.
Him - 12:25 pm - There is nothing to resolve...you moved on.
Me - 12:25 pm - No it won't, especia.ly when one of us is absent the conversation!
Me - 12:27 pm - No Mr. YOU moved on! YOU told me you were with Idaho! Was I supposed to wait AGAIN on the hopes she'd screw it up AGAIN! So I could pick up your pieces when you send flowers and get no response, in hopes that maybe JUST maybe THIS would be the time you saw me?!
Him - 12:28 pm - I told you I wasn't going to do anything with you until I got here...there. Remember? (I think he meant until 'you got here...there')
Me - 12:32 pm - Yes, and you wanted me here SO bad you offered to help me Mr. Who Got The $5,000 Sign On Bonus. It's convenient for you to use that line, too bad ya didn't offer! EVER! Chris did without hesitation because guess what?! He couldn't wait the 2 weeks until my mom got her payout to be with me! That's someone who wants to be with someone else! Not someone who uses it as an I could have too a month and a half later!
Him - 12:33 pm - Good for him. I don't need to explain myself to you.
Me - 12:34 pm - Uhhh isn't that what resolving it is all about?
Me - 12:34 pm - Either you want it for the right reasons or ya don't, it's cut and dry.
Him - 12:35 pm - Nothing will ever be resolved. We constantly do this and it is moot! We have both moved on. (Funny I thought it was me just a few minutes ago, not us)
Me - 12:36 pm - Then why are you trying if you've moved on? Oh that's right, just like that weekend you wanted to prove to me we could be 'us' still. Cause ya can.
Him - 12:37 pm - I'm glad you have all the answers.
Me - 12:39 pm - Well when you deam me worthy enough to be privey to your answers, then I'm all ears.
Him -12:40 pm - K
Him - 12:44 pm - Why is it some days it seems as all is resolved and then others its just right back into it?
Me - 12:46 pm - Because some days you want me and some days ya don't. I'm your almond joy.
Me - 12:48 pm - I love Chris, I love our life, no matter how rocky it gets. I don't have to do a dance for him to tell me how he feels. He has no issues calling me a bitch, beautiful, or telling me that he loves me, or wants me. You used to be like that. For Idaho's sake you should go back to being that person.
Him - 12:51 pm - And I don't think you are entirely sure you made the right choice either (Either? I'm sorry I didn't have one. You said you were with someone else, so I went off looking for people to fill my time while we were going to be LIVING WITH EACH OTHER! I'm sorry I found who I'm supposed to be with!!)
Him - 12:54 pm - Them he you are so happy then you/we need no resolution.
Him - 12:55 pm - Then if you are so happy then you/we need no resolution.
Me - 1:01 pm - I am happy, but that does not hcance how I felt about you for almost a year. That does not change that I will always love you, and wonder what might have been. But I wanted t o be with the person I first met, the nice guy, not the nice guy who kept breaking my heart (how he described himself to me on the last night we were 'us' before I found out he drove straight through Salt Lake on up to Idaho for the first time, when he started lying to me). He's gone, and I've finally accepted that. Do I think I made the wrong decision? Absolutely not.
Him - 1:03 pm - Then you shouldn't wonder what would have been with me.
And on that note...I'm done, you're right...you're an asshole and I don't need the shit you bring to my life. And as friends on the journal can see Chris and I are in a good place from the emails in the previous post, so we don't need the shit you bring to our lives either. Asshole. One word: Speed.