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2:45 am - Him - I keep losing my connection so i am going to sleep...sleep well
2:46 am - Me - I guess you didn't get my answer then.
2:46 am - Me - Sleep well
2:46 am - Him - Nope I didn't
2:46 am - Him - Give me your answer first
2:48 am - Me - Because I won't have anything to hide behind. You already see through all my bullshit now most of the time, and the few things I'm able to keep won't be hidden anymore. I won't be able to keep you from seeing the pain in my eyes, or the hurt, or even the love. And it's scary to me to be that vulnerable.
2:50 am - Him - You have nothing to worry about....i will not take advantage of it.
2:51 am - Me - I have no doubt in my mind about that, but the fact still remains I've been hurt a lot, and I must admit I'm very scared of how I'll take it in person should it happen.
2:53 am - Ok...so just to make things very clear right now, you know that i am still pursuing idaho, right?
2:56 am - Me - Yes I know. You've made that abundantly clear. As I am pursuing Jay there. That doesn't change our history or how I feel. (editorial notes - I had no idea. None.)
2:57 am - Him - Ok...just so long as we are on the same page we'll be just fine! I promise!
2:59 am - Me - That's just it. We don't have a page. I'm the binding in the middle and you're words just flying together in hopes of making a sentence.
3:01 am - Him - And i want you to look at the past two days...they have been the best days we've had in a very long time because we ARE the pages!
3:02 am - Him - You stopped trying to be the binding trying to hold everything and i stopped trying to say something! LOL
3:03 am - Me - Yes they have been, and I've loved every minute of them. They're a glimpse of who we used to be, but its all for not if you're vesting interest in someone else and I'm trying to find someone to help me move on.
3:04 am - Him - All for naught! LOL! What you say is true, but you never know what can happen!
3:06 am - Me - Whatever! And don't give me that shit! I do know what happens, and I've been right every time. Aside from you seeing your kids this weekend are you seeing her too?
3:07 am - Me - That you don't know what can happen crap is the stuff you feed me that keeps me here and not able to move on.
3:07 am - Him - I don't know yet...i am hoping so.
3:08 am - Him - Well. You don't! You are still coming here in the hopes that maybe something will happen so its not crap!
3:13 am - Me - Wanting what I want and knowing what may or may not happen to not go hand in hand. Of course I hope you wake the fuck up and see again what you saw first, beat me until I believed, and ripped away. That doesn't mean I didn't see and tell you that you would end up with Idaho. Katie told me that night that made it seem Idaho was not an option that it wouldn't work because she isn't willing to give up her life there. You said that was true. So I ask...what is the point? If she's 6 hours away, you two going to meet in Salt the rest of your lives?
3:16 am - Him - Please do not get upset again, ok? Obviously we won't meet in salt lake the rest of our lives. We really don't know what is going to happen and for now it is too soon to be making those kinds of decisions.
3:19 am - Me - You already were or have you forgotten? You already thought about giving up the job, you already talked about her going to Cedar. Don't tell me not to get upset Ron, you did it again. You just threw her into conversation out of the blue. I asked you time and again not to start sexual innuendos and anything like it if she was in the picture for you. Yet again you didn't respect what I asked.
3:21 am - Him - And yet you knew we both were pursuing others! So this is all my fault? I think not!
3:23 am - Me - I had a gut feeling, because I've been here with you how many times? I never said it was all your fault. There's a huge difference in my "pursuing" and yours. I've never met Jay, we're just talking now. I haven't slept with him, and haven't thought of changing myplans of Cedar to go to Salt Lake where he is.
3:28 am - Him - See this is what i don't get...you get upset full knowing where my intentions lie and i have been very up front with you! (editorial notes - that is why I'm just hearing about her being back in the picture now?! You're a pathological liar.)
3:29 am - Him - To me you have no right to be upset this time.
3:29 am - Me - I'm talking to you Ron there's a huge difference what I'm upset at has nothing to do with your intentions.
3:30 am - Me - Any why is that?
3:30 am - Him - Ok then why are you upset this time? (editorial notes - can you be any more condescending?)
3:31 am - Me - Answer my first
3:33 am - Him - Ok, i don't think you have a right to be upset with innuendos as you, albeit you are talking to me, are pursuing someone else.
3:36 am - Me - The difference being one very important thing, you don't feel about me as I do you, you are not hoping something happens as I do, and I am not initiating the innuendos, as you did. I followed your lead back into our old routine.
3:37 am - Me - And the reason I am upset is because I specifically asked you not to do that if you were with someone else. It's disrespectful to her and I.
3:39 am - Him - I agree it is disrespectful, but i did it to show you the old me was still there! I did it to show you that i can still make you laugh and we can still be comfortable around each other. There will ALWAYS be chemistry about us neither can deny.
3:41 am - Him - So although i shouldn't have done it i had very good reasons for doing it.
3:42 am - Me - The old you is not there, and I know now he will never be again. I'm kidding myself to believe that.
3:42 am - Me - And yet you are. . .you have and continue to deny it.
3:42 am - Me - Not good enough reasons.
3:43 am - Me - I am so sick of you playing me like this. It's a game to you. You see I'm just about to take one foot in a new direction and you reel me back in.
3:44 am - Him - How am i denying it when i just recognized it???
3:46 am - Him - Ok...look, my intentions were good. Obviously i was wrong again. What else is new? I guess we go right back to the people we were on friday. My bad for trying.
3:46 am - Me - Because you have a switch you can flip and not all of us do. You flip it off for her to play secretary with me, to make sure I'm still there and you flip it off for me when it gets to the serious stuff.
3:46 am - Him - We both need sleep...sleep well
3:47 am - Me - No we don't go back. We either fine new people or we cut our losses
3:47 am - Him - I'm not playing you tonya. Night.
3:47 am - Me - Fine walk away as usual
3:47 am - Me - Whatever
3:48 am - Him - It gets nowhere! It is the same shit over and over! (editorial notes - No truer words were spoken, you keep doing this to me over and over, and I keep letting you, over and over.)
3:48 am - Me - Okay maybe you missed the one where I said we need to find new people and not go back then?
3:50 am - Him - No i got that one and we both have found them and i can promise i won't be going back. It blew in my face yet again.
3:52 am - Me - Nothing blew in your face Ron, I'm trying to talk to you. Whereas before I would have already told you to fuck off and not talk to me. That's the difference.
3:56 am - Him - So where do we go now? And yes it blew in my face. Now we are right back to being weird with each other. It won't happen again. I see your point.
4:00 am - Me - And you faking these past two days wasn't weird? I don't know where we go now. You keep saying you never know what could happen, yet you're calling you two "we." So which is it? Life is open on your end to whatever, or that's only if she bails at the border, doesn't put forth more effort, or won't leave her life and you'd be alone? Is that when I'd come into the picture?
4:03 am - Him - You are already in the picture! Just not the way you would like to be! and i was not faking the past two days But i did have a reason believe it or not
4:05 am - Me - You know what I meant by that so don't be an asshole and hurtful. Yeah you're reason so far has just been to prove you could. How long were you going to keep it going?
4:06 am - Me - And anytime you would like to answer the important question in there would be great. Instead of picking the easiest line to answer. (editorial notes - as always!)
4:09 am - Him - It wasn't to prove that i could...i already knew that! I wouldn't have done it much longer. I was starting to feel bad for doing it.
4:10 am - Him - I didn't want to give you false hope again and, as you said, it was disrespectful to both you and idaho. (editorial notes - talk about respect. Do you call me Wisconsin to her? You called me by my name here, you have yet to do the same for her ever when we talk. Seems you need to learn the meaning.)
4:11 am - Me - Sleep well
4:13 am - Him - And now you do the same thing you bitched at me about...i give up
4:14 am - Me - What exactly would you like me to say to that?! You knew you could?! False hope AGAIN?! If you want my gut reaction I'll be happy to give it.
4:16 am - Him - I think I know it. You sleep well too. I hope to god we can get to some kind of common ground soon. I hate doing this.
4:18 am - Me - You basically just told me I'm your running joke! I would love to rattle off some well deserving names about now, but I'd like to take what's left of my dignity with me. Hope you enjoyed the free fucking show you wanted last night. Way to cross the line my friend. And I use the term loosely.
4:19 am - Me - Maybe this is for the best, you were worried something would happen as roommates. Fret not. I'll try and find other arrangements and if not, I'll work 6 jobs if I have to to get me the hell away from you.
4:20 am - Him - How did I say that? I have never thought of you that way!
4:22 am - Me - You told me you've given me false hope before now! You told me you already knew you could say and do all the things you said and did! That's MOCKING someone Ron! That's USING someone! That's inflicting scars that will NEVER heal! That's making someone a JOKE!
4:23 am - Me - How could you ask me to do what you asked me to do knowing you were just doing it to prove a point? That's beyond cruel!
4:25 am - Me - How could you at all do that to another human being? How could you cross that line? How can you tell me that is not making someone a joke? And not taking advantage? I have never been more hurt or humiliated in my life!
4:25 am - Him - Wow you are reaching tonight! I would never ever do that to you! What i said was based off feelings you have already had and i didn't want to make you feel that way again.
4:26 am - Me - I am not reaching at anything! You didn't want any of what you said, that's faking it!
4:28 am - Him - I am ending this conversation until we can talk somewhere other than here. What I said was taken COMPLETELY out of context.
4:29 am - Me - And where do you propose we talk elsewhere? A computer that's a bigger version of this? Or let's just postpone conversation of it until I'm in Cedar?
4:30 am - Him - And when I say someplace different I mean i will call you! This has gotten ALL turned around!
4:31 am - Him - No it will happen later today i can promise that!
4:32 am - Me - Don't bother. It's not worth it. We can talk about Cedar and we can talk about the weather other than that I have nothing to say.
4:32 am - Me - Keep your promises they mean about as much as your apologies. Good night.
4:33 am - Him - Oh so now you don't want to talk about it when i am willing? Thanks!
4:33 am - Me - Fine you call I'll listen.
4:34 am - Him - Whatever
4:34 am - Me - Agreed

Every fiber of my being
I used to trust you
I wouldn't believe
If you told me the sky was blue

I give up separating my life
Share my friends, my enemies, share it all
I see the way you use me, discard me
Roll me through your fingers like a ball

I'm partly to blame
I let you do this time and again
I let you manipulate me
and pretend

You keep lying to me even now
I'll never speak to her again
I won't meet her
She's just a friend

Why do you have to be so invested in my life?
Especially when you don't want me in yours?
Three times the charm, right?
Christy, Lisa, Katie, any more?

I can't believe you'd do this yet again
Is this what Angie felt like, when I came along?
Slowly weening me out now?
For the next one that you'll do wrong.

I hate you so much
It kills me
I love you much more
So I still torture myself completely.

I always thought I passed up my one
Wasting too much time on Mr. Wrong
I thought all that disappeared
When you came along

Go ahead, flirt
Meet, I don't care anymore
I just want to get there
And start my life once more

Hope to god there's someone better
Than the one I'm leaving behind
Maybe my biggest mistake yet
Here's hoping the thought leaves my mind
-Tonya 10/01/08



There's a corner of your heart for me.
There's a corner of your heart just for me.
I will pack my bags just to stay in the corner of your heart.
Just to stay in the corner of your heart.

There is room beneath your bed for me.
There is room beneath your bed just for me.
I will leave this town just to sleep underneath your bed.
Just to sleep underneath your bed.

There's one minute of your day.
There's one minute of your day.
I will leave this man just to occupy one minute of your day.
Just to occupy one minute of your day.

Just to sleep underneath your bed.

Just to stay in the corner of you heart.